Wave BYE BYE to Fear in the New Year!
I don’t want 2019 to go the way it started. Lord have mercy, I was a willing participant in the battle royale against fear.
You wouldn’t believe the lies I was telling myself almost as soon as my feet hit the carpet.
Ryan and I are running the Indy Mini Marathon in May. LIE: I need to lace up my shoes and run all 13.1 miles today to make sure I can still do it after two babies. (How about putting together a doable training plan and trusting the process?)
I’m going to treat my body better in January with a little thing called fruits and vegetables. LIE: Because I haven’t stocked the fridge with a rainbow of fruits and veggies, I’m destined to exist off of sugar all year. (How about waiting until the grocery stores are actually open to buy a reasonable amount of healthy food that won’t go bad in the fridge waiting for its consumption?)
Our house needs a good purge. LIE: I need to run around like a crazy person throwing junk into bins and lighting them all on fire. (How about one room at a time there, mama?)
I’ve got a million ideas to impact more lives through I Am Mother of the Year. LIE: I need to hide away in a quiet place for a week to put all of these items into action or I’m never going to do it. (How about making a list and taking one day at a time, and maybe scheduling a few 4-hour blocks of time into the month of January to focus?)
LIE: I’m already a failure in 2019. I would rather skip 2019 altogether so I don’t suffer the impending humiliation of not meeting any of my goals.
The truth is:
Resolutions are not won or lost in a single moment, or even in a day. Resolutions, like all important things in our lives, are a continuous battle worth fighting for.
Fear is my enemy, and I will treat it as such. I will combat the lies fear whispers in my ear with the truth.
The journey is usually more important than the destination. Maybe defeating fear isn’t the main goal – but allowing myself to be refined by the process itself.
It’s not about perfection. Good thing, too, because I’m so far from it in every area of life.